Have you ever found yourself doing that seductive fun little dance? The Hanky Panky Hokey Pokey? It's a bit hard to describe but I will do the best I can. You've been enjoying playful bouts of great amorous fun with a sexy and engaging partner and attempting to convince yourself that you can still keep your cool about it. You put your hands all over one another then your lips and tongues in various carnally delightful spots. Enjoy what you can and then retire back to your separate quarters..When you least expect it you find yourself thinking of your hanky panky partner again. Shoot! Stop that! Get out of my mind.
I am one big open minded person but fairly adverse to dating, relationships (eek work, vulnerability, feelings) and such. As I make my way towards more independence it's important to remain grounded. Yet in trying to somehow compartmentalize the unusual freedom and comfort I feel in the moments I share with him I am at a loss. I am exuberantly alive in his arms, I quiver at his touch, and am simply happy to feel his hand grasp mine. There is simple comfort there. I need nothing more in those moments. I often want to fix what ails him and know what makes him happy and hear of his accomplishments no matter how big or small.
Then comes that unusual dance where we part and I still do not know how to really interpret or read what he does. I just enjoy what comes along and the moment for what it is. There is always constant learning and enjoyment in that process. There is still so much more to explore as well. When there is desire, there is always a flame. You run the risk of getting burned, but life is about taking calculated risks.
September 24, 2014
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